Jan 6 2016

I choose

I choose to BeLoved.

Everyone has told me that I should start a blog.  I love reading and I love writing, but what qualifies me to write something that people want to read, much less share what I have to say with others?  Who am I?  That thought has been a lifelong learning lesson and I’m sure that I am not done discovering who I am.

The thing that I have learned is that putting people into categories, types, systems and personalities makes people comfortable.  In reality, we can’t fit into nice compartmentalized lists for people to check off when they need someone in their life from that certain category or group.  People are complicated; life experiences tend to make us want to identify ourselves or name ourselves based on our circumstances or past. People are complicated;experiences make us identify us based on our circumstances or past. Add ethnicity, education, likes and wants to that list and we start to resemble people who are riddled with contradictions of who or what we think we are.  Associations with certain people, groups, religious and political affiliations shape how people perceive us.  People like to try to know who you are or what you are about so that they can figure you out, assess you, and then try to relate to you so they can make themselves more at ease. People like to know what you are about then they can assess you,relate & make them more at ease.

I am…  female, Korean- American, short, full figured, expressive, animated, brash, opinionated, a liberal Republican, a conservative Democrat, a Christ follower, a lover of adventure, corny, sarcastic, a loud laugher, a survivor of sexual assault, a reformed people pleaser, a past liar, a former substance abuser, an overcomer, a visionary, a lover of politics, a licensed minister,  an advocate for the voiceless, a supporter of drug free communities, impulsive, spontaneous, contemplative, melancholy, bohemian, a giver, a helper, a servant, a leader, hopeful, optimistic, a realist, a tree hugger, an earth lover, a Krystal lovin’ foodie, a community advocate, a grass roots leader, an encourager, a military spouse, a military brat, a constant interrupter, an international friend, a lover of house music, a wannabe dj, a motivational speaker, a healer, a teacher, someone who breaks into random song, a lover of puns, brie, chamoy and kimchi.

These are things that I can let define me so that someone can fit me in their lists, or I can believe that I am all of those things and so much more.  I am not defined by my circumstance or experience but who God created me to be and that is to BeLoved and to Be Love to others. I am not defined by my circumstance or experience but by God to BeLoved & Be Love to others.

I have spent so much of my life trying to figure out where I belong or what group I belong to and I realized this.  God created me with so many passions.  It’s almost as if He created me with the passion for living and discovering.  Actually, He did.  I love life and every aspect of it.   If you know me, you know that wherever I am, I am there 100%.  I may not love baseball, but if I am at a game, I am there for the experience, the clothes, the food, the friends, and the team.  I might not know all the words to “Take me Out to the Ballgame”, but I am going to sing the parts I know and really loudly.

I am Lauren, lover of life and a lifelong learner.  Looking forward to loving on you, doing life with you and now I can add Amateur blogger to my list.

BeLoved.

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